“What’s the phone number here [his house for over 30 years]?”
“You work all those years, all those hours. No family life, no free time. All the sacrifice. Around thirty-eight, thirty-nine, you look around and you see the new guys, with their own vision, their own styles - and it doesn’t speak to you. You see it. You respect it. But you can’t do it. It’s not you. You’ve said what you had to say. It’s time to get out. To move on.”
-from the article Is Anybody Home?, written by Anthony Bourdain
“Vegetarians are the enemy of everything good and decent in the human spirit, and affront to all I stand for, the pure enjoyment of food.”
Anthony Bourdain from Kitchen Confidential
“There is only a get-rich-quick, make-a-name-for-yourself-fast philosophy. Cheat, lie, falsify-it doesn’t matter. Not to you, or to your colleagues. No one will criticize you. No one has any standards. They are all trying to do the same thing: to do something big, and do it fast.”
Dr. Ian Malcolm
from Jurassic Park, by Michael Crichton
Everyone is so damn sensitive. Grow a fucking backbone and get the fuck over it.
Guys, let’s cultivate RESILIENCE!
“Hammond was like every other management guy Arnold had ever seen. Whether it was Disney or the Navy, management guys always behaved the same. They never understood the technical issues; and they thought that screaming was the way to make things happen. And maybe it was, if you were shouting at your secretaries to get you a limousine.”
narration for John Arnold
-from Jurassic Park, by Michael Crichton
“They say a fighter’s blood starts pumping faster when he finds someone tougher than him.”
Granny Viper, People Finder
01/30/2014 - Forgotten Worlds is another game I finished that I don’t want to play again. I had it for the Amiga and not for the Genesis. I found a copy and all the memories of it being an annoying game came back to me. Not as hard as Altered Beast but it is close.
01/31/2014 - My first day was spent mostly reading and a couple of hours getting used to their computer system. It wasn’t bad. Wished I had more to do. Weather wise, it was a typical winter day.
Getting there on my first day was good because I was able to catch the E that normally doesn’t come to my particular stop. Getting home was a different story, an atypical commute. I had to pick up a package not too far from work, so I had to take the R, switch to the F, and then wait awhile for my bus. The commute, for both ways, will normally consist of a bus, the F, and the E. It’s a long commute both ways but it’ll save money versus taking LIRR.
Who knows what the future will hold for me.
02/01/2014 - Why buy a house when you immediately move to a new city that you’ve never been to and have connections with? You don’t know the area at all, so would it not make more sense to rent an affordable house, which are easily available, for a year and gain knowledge about the city and its real estate market so that you can find the best suitable place? Also consider that you have hundreds of thousands of dollars in student loans to pay off, as well as car payments. With so much money already owed to people, does it make sense to add on another debt?
02/04/2014 - Life is sabotaging me. In fact, it always has been. Why should it stop now.
A familiar bad feeling is back. The last time I had this feeling was when there were terminations. Have to survive for as long as possible. So the hunt will still continue, no temporary break. The drought didn’t end?
02/05/2014 - In terms of my commute, 10 minutes can make a difference of 1 hour.
02/07/2014 - I’ve lasted one week. Hooray! I think, right now that is, that my commute tires me out more than work does.
Why does every place I go to have me working under someone of Chinese descent and someone of Eastern European descent? Sometimes, they have strong accents. Them being of those descent doesn’t bother me, unless they are bad co-workers. I just find it strange that this has happened at every place.
02/10/2014 - Spent most of the day relearning Excel, pulling off a few things my supervisor didn’t think/know. The boss lady returned from vacation so everybody was on their toes.
02/11/2014 - My niece took her first steps without any kind of support. She then fell on her butt.
02/12/2014 - I caught a feather while riding the subway.
02/14/2014 - Spent Valentine’s Day night watching The Lego Movie with an old friend. I thought she wanted me to help dig her car out. It was a very pleasant surprise. It was also one of the best Valentine’s Day I ever had even though there was no kissing, hugging, roses, novelty items, etc., involved. There were chocolates involved, we shared a bag of peanut M&Ms. Actually, she ripped opened the bag, dumped most of it in my hand, and she ate about five pieces. She’s on a diet, which is funny because the women who are on diets are usually the ones who don’t need to be. The ones who should be dieting are the ones who usually don’t.
02/17/2014 - I caught the homeless subway car. Literally, there were at least six homeless people in that subway car. Yet, it smelled better than a subway car full of hipsters. It was less noisy, too.
02/22/2014 - There’s no feeling in the world similar to seeing your first pay check. There is, also, no feeling in the world similar to when you realize that your pay check is violated repeatedly by taxes and other costs, e.g., insurance.
02/26/2014 - Finally got home at the time I was supposed to. May have gotten a seat on the bus, or home sooner, if people would walk at a normal speed, instead of a snail’s pace, and stopped having conversations in front of the subway entrance/turnstiles.
02/27/2014 - Some times you have to be a jerk. Not all the time, just some times.
"I don’t care about you people! I just want the baby!" -a grandmother who misses her granddaughter
In the future, all major world events (the Olympics, World Cups, Nobel Prize ceremony, and Cannes Film Festival) will be held in the Un!t3d Stat3s of Americ@ for reasons like security and facilities.
Nowadays the grandparents and I have to be careful about what we say in case the baby’s mama is listening. If she doesn’t like it, no more seeing the baby and her dad doesn’t object at all. What makes it funnier is that you have to grin and bear what she says without arguing back. The baby’s mama can dish it but can’t take. Whatever, glad I’m not married and that I don’t have to see her, much, or her relatives.
My life has been spent alone. It can, and will, end alone. Nothing new here.
Haven’t had time to read or exercise because of work, which is a good thing. My commute is almost two hours long; leave residence before 7am and return a little before 7pm, for now. Was only able to finish reading Hoops, The Chocolate War, and Inherit the Wind. I read during my commute, if I get a seat, and sometimes when I am home and either not tired or completing errands/doing chores. Still reading Tommyknockers when I feel like it.
Polar Vortex and other weather phenomenons are made up by weather people to make their jobs seem more interesting? It seems that there is a new weather phenomenon occurring every year, even though that weather occurrence happened in previous years.
Why feel bad when a celebrity, like an actor or singer, dies from their own actions, e.g., drug overdose?
It’s the loneliest feeling in the world-to find yourself standing up when everybody else is sitting down. To have everybody look at you and say, “What’s the matter with him?” I know. I know what it feels like. Walking down an empty street, listening to the sound of your own footsteps. Shutters closed, blinds drawn, doors locked against you. And you aren’t sure whether you’re walking toward something, or if you’re just walking away.
-Henry Drummond from Inherit the Wind
Eeyore, the old grey Donkey, stood by the side of the stream, and looked at himself in the water.
"Pathetic," he said. "That’s what it is. Pathetic."
He turned and walked slowly down the stream for twenty yards, splashed across it, and walked slowly backed on the other side. Then he looked at himself in the water again.
"As I thought," he said. "No better from this side. But nobody minds. Nobody cares. Pathetic, that’s what it is.”
There was a crackling noise in the bracken behind him, and out came Pooh.
"Good morning, Eeyore," said Pooh.
"Good morning, Pooh Bear," said Eeyore gloomily. "If it is a good morning,” he said. “Which I doubt,” he said.
"Why, what’s the matter?"
"Nothing, Pooh Bear, nothing. We can’t all, and some of us don’t. That’s all there is to it."
Can’t all what?" said Pooh, rubbing his nose.
"Gaiety. Song-and-dance. Here we go round the mulberry bush."
"Oh!" said Pooh. He thought for a long time, and then asked, What mulberry bush is that?"
"Bon-hommy," went on Eeyore gloomily. "French word meaning bonhommy," he explained. "I’m not complaining, but There It Is."
Pooh sat down on a large stone, and tried to think this out. It sounded to him like a riddle, and he was never much good at riddles, being a Bear of Very Little Brain. So he sang Cottleson Pie instead.
"That’s right," said Eeyore. "Sing. Umty-tiddly, unty-too. Here we go gathering Nuts and May. Enjoy yourself."
"I am," said Pooh.
"Some can," said Eeyore.
"Why, what’s the matter?"
“Is anything the matter?”
"You seem so sad, Eeyore."
"Sad? Why should I be sad? It’s my birthday. The happiest day of the year."
"Your birthday?" said Pooh in great surprise.
"Of course it is. Can’t you see? Look at all the presents I have had." He waved a foot from side to side. "Look at the birthday cake. Candles and pink sugar."
Pooh looked-first to the right and then to the left.
"Presents?" said Pooh. "Birthday cake?" said Pooh. "Where?”
"Can’t you see them?"
"No," said Pooh.
"Neither can I," said Eeyore. "Joke," he explained. "Ha ha!"
Pooh scratched his head, being a little puzzled by all this.
"But is it really your birthday?" he asked.
"Oh! Well, Many happy returns of the day, Eeyore."
"And many happy returns to you, Pooh Bear."
"But it isn’t my birthday.”
"No it’s mine."
"But you said ‘Many happy returns’-"
"Well, why not? You don’t always want to be miserable on my birthday, do you?"
"Oh, I see," said Pooh.
"It’s bad enough," said Eeyore, almost breaking down, "being miserable myself, what with no presents and no cake and no candles, and no proper notice taken of me at all, but if everybody else is going to be miserable too-"
“How can you be so cold…? You don’t care at all what happens to anyone else, do you? You’re nothing but darkness and ice to the very core. No matter what anyone else thinks of you, you can just ignore them like some little puff of wind.”
“Father, you have always been kind to me. However, it only stands to reason that a parent should love their child. It doesn’t stand to reason that the child love the parent in turn." -Lady Ann to Roland, the Duke of Xenon, her father
Love is an illusion.
Go ahead, dream as much as you want. No one is stopping you. Just remember that your dream will get cancelled.
Make it a point to be pointless.
Rugby is the manly sport that hand-egg always wished it could be. If more countries play rugby than American football/handegg, then shouldn’t rugby become an Olympic sport more so than handegg? We all know which country will win gold if handegg becomes an Olympic sport.
Where would the world be without lies?
01/16/2014 - Nothing is set in stone, guaranteed, even when it is set in stone. Things happen, i.e., they can always hire a cousin. So the search continues until the beginning has begun.
01/10/2014 - How many times is this appointment going to change. First it was Friday, then Tuesday after lunch, and, now, Tuesday late afternoon. I have a bad feeling about this but have no choice. I am at their mercy. The first meeting was during a bad weather day (pouring rain, windy, and dropping temperatures) and it went surprisingly well. This meeting reminded me of another meeting a long time ago, with other people, that was on a bad weather day (unseasonably freezing temperature). That meeting didn’t go well but the outcome was good. May this upcoming meeting’s outcome also be good. Pray or wish me luck.
Closing in on the last day of the quadrilogy, Valentine’s Day. It’s also my b-day, but keep that a secret.
Books read so far since the last time:
Vampire Hunter D: Dark Road, parts 1, 2, & 3
Vampire Hunter D: Pilgrimage of the Sacred and the Profane
The G0v3rnm3nt Manual for New Superheroes (Definitely not as good as other survival/guide humour books)
Star Wars: How to Speak Wookie, A Manual for Intergalactic Communication (gift from my bro and his wife)
Started reading my third big book, 500+ pages. The previous two were The Stand and Brave Story.
“At that age, they’re as happy as they can be. Life seems endless, the sorrows few." -Ann-Britt Hoglund
Catillac Cats or Cats & Co.? I always say Catillac Cats because that was the name I remember from my childhood. Is it odd that I like Heathcliff, Garfield, Catillac Cats but don’t own, nor want to have, cats as pets? Not really, I don’t want to have pets. Cleo was a hottie, much better than Sonja. Sonja lacked spunk. I love watching the old episodes, I bought the Shout box set for $12.
I think Queen Latifah is much better than Oprah. The Queen is appealing in many more ways than Oprah, who seemed more like a Caucasian politician back during her heyday. Oprah appealed more to affluent Caucasian females because they have the money and, eventually, the power, which is more evident now than back in the 80s and 90s.
01/18/2014 - Wanted to see a movie. There were, however, no movies worth seeing.
When did toys become so expensive? Did it occur because of collectors and all of their various incarnations, i.e., fan-boys, otakus, and cos-players?
Want to win an award in Hollywood, or at least get some publicity, then make a film about slavery, the Holocaust, or war (e.g., Vietnam, Middle East, WWI, WWII). Wonder if it is possible to make a movie that combines slavery, war, and aspects of the Holocaust. There has to be, it’s Hollywood.
01/16/2014 - I had to watch Sister Act 1 and 2. What did I do wrong?
If you’re a normal Caucasian male with a decent job, then you have no reason to complain about not being able to get a girl. Using ugliness or sloppiness, i.e., poorly dressed, as an excuse is unacceptable because you’re Caucasian. Hang out in Manhattan, e.g., Times Square and Penn Station, long enough and you’ll have all the proof you need, as well as the reason why the above statements are being made.
Is there anything wrong with replying back to a recruiter/HR person asking for an explanation concerning rejection, or for an explanation as to why it took so long for a response? About 4 months to find out that I was rejected seems too long, while the explanation is boilerplate. If you don’t want people hounding you then give a reason for them not to, i.e., don’t delay responses and provide a reasonable explanation for the rejection. If HR is going to become human-less, then it can be replaced by a computer and join the other professions/jobs that were replaced by either outsourcing or computers/robots, like lawyers.
01/23/2014 - Finally was able to convince my father that Prez. 0bam@ is not the greatest prez of all time. While he isn’t as bad as Bu$h Jr., he is far from Clint0n and others. Prez. 0bam@ has made some things worse, like employment. In order to see these worsening problems, you need to delve much deeper and go well beyond what you’ve been told by sources like the news, Facebook, Twitter, and alleged experts. You need to read between the lines and judge for yourself with an open, unbiased mind. This is likely impossible for most people.
“Uncomfortable chairs force you to finish what you have to do more quickly, whether it’s eating, thinking, or talking to a cop." -Sture Bjorklund
Been having bad dreams the past few weeks. Not nightmares but bad dreams, like being stranded in a populated city with no money, no cards, no phone, and zero people willing to assist me. The worst so far has been when two people, a guy and a gal, were trying to break in. I lost track of the guy but heard the lady coming in from the other side. I ran over there and caught her still trying to climb in. Before she makes it through, I disposed of her quickly. After that, I heard the second person coming from the other side, ran to the spot, but was too late. He was in, had his gun pointed at me, and fired three shots. Two shots to my head, one in the chest.
I died and then started to float/fly up with an angel by my side who was constantly talking. The angel was claiming that I had an easy life full of luxuries like money and women. An extravagant and wasteful lifestyle. This made me laugh out loud. The angel continued to harangue me, blaming me for my current situation too, which angered me. So I argued back. Punching the angel while going up may not have helped me. Stupid angel. The angel then ripped off my wings, causing me to free fall. When I landed, Satan asked if I argued with the angel. I gave her an affirmative answer and Satan offered me a place on her sofa and drinks. We proceeded to discuss what hypocritical jerks god, angels, and their followers are.
01/19/2014 - Had another disturbing dream during a nap. This time, though, I did not die. In this one I was watching a strange version of The Dukes of Hazzard that starred the Ying Yang Twins, with Rob Dyrdek and Big Black as their bodyguards, in my car. This is very strange since my car is a small 2-seater. I then tried to sneak into my apartment, which is part of a bank that is under investigation for supporting the @meric@n g0v3rnm3nt. I entered through the main door and saw a card in the ATM machine. I pressed a code and found out it had a few thousand dollars in the account. I, however, forgot the code to extract the money.
So I scratched the card and proceeded through a secret door that took me to the back of the bank, then started jumping up these hovering platforms similar to those found in Sonic video games. A few of them moved also. When I reached the top, I had more platforms to jump and climb up, each platform with holograms of sporting events through the years, like the Olympics and World Cups. After this I was at the head of a giant robot/teddy bear/dinosaur float. I opened the door on the top of the head and tried to make my way down until I got stuck in a tunnel that went from an eye/ear to the stomach. This is when I woke up. Throughout the dream, except when watching the strange version of The Dukes of Hazzard, the bank/apartment’s radio system kept playing one-hit wonders from the 90s and early 2000s of the rock and rap genres.
Update- Had another strange dream, tonight, that combined Scooby-Doo, a drama show like 24, and Degrassi Junior High (what, I’m old). It had two celebrities, both side characters from many shows like Full House. Long story short, I need these dreams to end because I need sleep. They aren’t nightmares but they wake me up in the middle of sleeping. I can think of only two reasons for why I’m having these dreams. I’m nervous or because I’m now addicted to eating mandarin oranges, having given up Pez even though one Pez brick contains less sugar than an orange. Go figure, I’m trying to give up candy by eating fruit and I’ve now increased my intake of sugar. Is there a such thing as healthy sugars?
“The only thing you have to worry about after plastic surgery is explaining it to your children.” -cosmetic surgery clinic in Hong Kong
The first time I was supposed to go there, the appointment was rescheduled due to a snow storm. On the rescheduled date, the weather was random; sunny, rainy, windy, unseasonably warm, humid, and so forth.
The second time I was supposed to go there, the appointment had to be rescheduled twice, first changing the day and then changing the time, due to meetings. When the actual day and time came, it was freezing and raining heavily, with gusty winds.
On 01/23/2014, the weather was just freezing cold, with the winds making it feel below zero. The day I signed the K, 01/29/2014, was another freezing day. I wonder what the weather will be like on my first day.
01/24/2014 - It was a good day. I got an offer, which I need to complete on Wednesday. Spoke with Ms. Mimi, I miss her. I finished Altered Beast, which I never want to play again. This has made me seek out more old games. Arsenal won their FA Cup game. Finally, I started reading my Muppet comics, needing to buy a few more to complete the series I have. Yes, it was a good day.
01/25/2014 - You know you’ve been in the cold way too long when 30 degrees feels warm to you.
Started going after old arcade games, Neo Geo, Capcom, Konami, whatever. Hook was a good game, but very repetitive. Found some old Neo Geo scrolling shooters, e.g., Ghost Pilots. Will try to find more when I have the time.
01/29/2014 - One drought is over.